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Francesca my darling,
It is still Wednesday: I never knew it go on being Wednesday for so long before. And I sit about filled with the most gloomy forebodings feeling that the house never will be sold or, worse still, that the bank, the solicitors and the agents between them will get all the money. I
don't quite know what lesson one should learn from all this but I am sure there is something. The assistant bank manager said to me, “These solicitors are all rogues, all of them. You may have paid for the house but who knows if the vendor has the money yet.” I thought he might have added banks to solicitors but did not say so.
I think as you do about children. Anyhow I feel that we could at least do our best to make a happy home which people who do not love each other cannot do. Whether our best would be good enough no one can tell but the idea of it is thrilling … It is tragic how often parents hinder rather than help the development of their children: and the child is always so helpless, so little able to contribute to a harmonious home. Like as not it quite unconsciously sets about making mischief or difficulty.
I have been doing some of my group paper in the interval when a patient was away. It is not good as it stands but it may be possible to expand it into something worthwhile. It has possibilities. As usual I find myself brought up short by the lack of time to do all one would like. And yet if I had more time I should probably do what everyone with time seems to do – waste it. I think really I get through a great deal of work but I am apt to forget that I have done ten hours of patients and wonder why my mind is not fresh. Luckily I have a great capacity for being lazy and I think this saves me from overwork. Rickman I don't think ever attached enough importance to this, perhaps by temperament, and I think he wasted himself very badly. He had a very good brain but I think for the last ten years there was a falling off. He did not himself realize it luckily. The