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Dejection and rejection. Fear the latter will emerge as sarcasm. Resentment at not being a success, and feeling I am not a success because not good enough to be one. If only I were a good analyst! Envy others who have the guts to charge fees on that supposition. I prefer paying the cost of being morally superior, thinking thereby I avoid the cost of being scientifically superior – which of course I don't. Resent that too. This comes near to resenting being a mere ordinary person who has to earn a living.
The language of achievement needs to be differentiated from the language of substitution for action. Both have precursors – there are day-dreams which are a substitute for action and day-dreams which are a prelude to action. I have available α and β elements: could these be used? The β elements, I have said, scarcely qualify for thoughts at
all; α elements I regard as precursors of C Category elements such as are used in dreams etc. … Could α be regarded as analogous to alpha-particles and β elements as inert, not penetrative and not reaction producing? The elements of ‘thoughts of achievement’ would be α elements. The language of inertia substitution would be the language composed of β elements (the β screen) capable of deflecting α elements. (Related to resistance, stability, inertia – no dream, no thoughts). Even when concerned with achievement in other fields, LA must conform to aesthetic laws of aesthetic achievement – “beautiful forms, beautifully executed”.
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