This article describes the author's experience of his own 10½-year psychoanalytic treatment as an analysand. This undertaking employs two literary voices: the first, called MOMENTS, captures in the present tense certain experiences during the analysis, and the second, called NOTES, explicates these experiences. In this manner, the author examines such issues as: (1) the death of his analyst, (2) the beginning and termination of his treatment, (3) “present moment” experiences in cultivating an improvisational attitude, (4) the impact of his analyst's disclosure of his own subjectivity, (5) the realization of “fittedness” in discerning authentic self-state moments, (6) the necessary evolution of both idealization and deidealization during the course of treatment, and (7) grappling with mortality as a universal theme in psychoanalysis.