During the clinical hour, I am engaged by my patient’s subjective experience, but I am a subject as well, and writing invites me to focus on my own subjective experience, albeit retrospectively. It invites me to take seriously that whatever happens between two people is cocreated. It makes that truth much more experience near. Writing about Nikki and Anne deepened and revealed the complexity of my responses to them and led me to a new, unspoken, and not-even-considered understanding of myself.