Fifty-Seventh Session

Richard again met Mrs K. nearer her home. He knew quite well that he was not supposed to do that, though Mrs K. had not expressly forbidden it. He straight away held out the fleet which he was carrying in his hand (for the first time he did not carry it in his pocket), being keen to show it to Mrs K. at once. He was very friendly and talkative, obviously trying to amuse and pacify her. Very soon he asked whether she had already met Mr Smith. Mrs K.'s answer that she had not did not seem to disperse Richard's doubts, for he kept on looking out for Mr Smith. Soon after they had arrived at the playroom, Richard noticed that Mr Smith was passing by and seemed relieved; but he became worried when Mr Smith stopped by the garden on the other side of the road to talk to the old man there (the one whom Richard had nicknamed ‘the bear’). Richard asked whether Mr Smith could hear Mrs K. and him, and began to speak in whispers.

Mrs K. interpreted that by meeting her near her lodgings, Richard not only wanted to find out whether she was going to see Mr Smith and what they would do together, but that he also wanted to go into Mrs K.'s bedroom and find out whether perhaps she went to bed with the ‘grumpy old gentleman’.

Richard interrupted at this point, asking whether there had been any raids by the R.A.F.

Mrs K. added that he would like to watch her movements day and night, as he wished to do with Mummy, but this was not only because he was jealous but also because sexual intercourse meant to him dangerous attacks like the R.A.F. raids, which could kill Mummy as the tramp-Daddy might have done, or Hitler might kill Mrs K. when she returned to London.

Richard, though embarrassed, agreed that he always very closely watched Mummy to find out what she had been doing and was inquisitive about all her movements, and in particular about any letters she received. He added, ‘And she watches me all the time—no, she does not.’

Mrs K. interpreted that Richard's curi