Seventy-Ninth Session

Richard arrived with his suitcase, ready to go home after the session. He compared his watch with Mrs K.'s and again expressed the wish that they should both show exactly the same time. He remarked that his was a little behind Mrs K.'s, but comforted himself by saying that the difference was very slight. He spoke at some

length about his watch. He said it was nearly ‘starved’ last night; it badly needed winding up. When he had wound it up, it went quietly to sleep.

Mrs K. suggested that the watch stood for himself, who needed the analysis from Mrs K. and felt starved last night because he could not get it. This was what he had felt as a baby, when he wanted to be fed and loved by Mummy and she was not there. His wish that his and Mrs K.'s watches should show exactly the same time meant that she and he should think and feel alike and that Mrs K. should remain inside him and be all at one with him (Note I). The watch also stood for his genital, and he wished that he and Mrs K. should have the same genitals; then there would be no difference between them. Winding his watch, moreover, meant feeding the genital by rubbing it. But at the same time he was afraid that by playing with his genital he would injure it; in the last session the destroyer Vampire had represented his genital, and when he made sure that it was going straight and said that it moved by itself, this meant that his penis was all right.

Richard was very embarrassed during Mrs K.'s interpretation of his masturbation and first denied that he played with his genital. After a little pause, he said that he sometimes did so. Then he announced that the fleet had come; it was in his suitcase. He had not intended to use it, but would do so after all. He took it out of the case and put it on the table.

Mrs K. interpreted that Richard might have felt hurt in the previous session because she had not paid much attention to the fleet. (The material had been so abundant and there were more