Ninety-Third Session

Richard was silent and sad. This whole session was characterized by long pauses and obvious efforts to speak, still to do some work, and not to give in to his depression—for his own and for Mrs K.'s sake. At the beginning he said that he was very sad about Mrs K. leaving him.… He asked if she knew the name of a woman he had heard of in ‘Z’ who did some kind of work; but he really believed that she did not do the right thing and was a witch.… He mentioned that he had made friends with the pretty conductress.

Mrs K. interpreted that since he was going to lose her and the analysis, he was trying to make friends wherever he could; in that way he would prevent being attacked by hostile people. The pretty conductress was a mixture to him of good and bad: as pretty, he thought, as his mother and yet bad because she treated him like a child. But he wanted to be on good terms with her before Mrs K. left.

Richard caught a fly and put it out of the window saying that it was flying into the ‘Bear's’ garden.

Mrs K. interpreted that flies had played various roles in former sessions. Sometimes he had killed them (and then they had often stood for bad babies or even for the bad Daddy). At other times he had set them free, as he had done now when he said the fly would go into the ‘Bear's’ garden. The ‘Bear’ stood for a fairly harmless Daddy.

Richard said thoughtfully: ‘The Bear is the dark-blue Daddy,’ but added that his real Daddy was a light-blue Daddy. This was the first time that he used the words ‘light blue’ about his father—it had always been reserved for the ideal Mummy or Mrs K.

Mrs K. interpreted that he now used light blue for Daddy and seemed to express his love for him in this way. It was also a consolation because he was losing Mrs K. to have Daddy as somebody nearly as good as Mummy.

Richard went into the kitchen and drank from the tap.

Mrs K. interpreted that if he could not have the good breast, he wanted now to take in the good penis