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On Whit Friday, 26 May, the circle appears again. This time (Fig. 37) there are four of them, three turned into faces, like a child's first drawing of a face, but one of them looks like a toothed mouth, and there are also four sets of features of a face without any boundary at all. I note that the toothed-mouth circle can also be seen in another way, for the curve which divides the circle, which I had first seen as a grinning mouth, can also be seen as turning the bottom half of the circle into a crescent moon, which is now containing the smaller circle within its horns, almost as if trying to swallow it. I note that the way I read the drawing alternates between it being the crescent moon trying to swallow a lesser moon, and the primitive kind of face with its grinning mouth and teeth.
On this day also is a page of four circles like mouths full up with gnashing teeth (Fig. 38), and a shape that looks like an eye.
On another page there are two whole heads (Fig. 39) and in the top one the open toothed mouth seems to be fixed half open in a kind of dismayed horror, a horror which is also distorting the sight of the eyes; I feel she cannot ‘see straight’, whatever it is that she is looking at.
On the Tuesday after the Whit Monday holiday, 30 May, she brings a whole book full of drawings, all of faces, most of them having a circle in the forehead and with quiet peaceful shut mouths. There is also one skirted figure, and she says of this that, ‘It is a publican, no, a republican, they stand and spout about how good they are.’ I say, ‘Perhaps you mean Pharisee?’ She agrees, and then says that at N.I. she had got herself a face, and she was asking Dr F if she might have one, a personality.
Remembering the savagely toothed mouths of the Friday drawings, I seem to have seen this remark about Dr F's not allowing her a face, a personality, as the projection of her own inability to tolerate the fact of her mother-me having both the breast she needs and an independent existence. Cert