This clinical paper explores aspects of unconscious communication and dissociation during the authors first year in psychoanalytic training, as an early career clinician. The author explores dissociation subjectively experienced as a form of communicating both consciously and unconsciously. The analyst/analysand relationship is expressed as the conduit for optimal exposure to dissociated self-states in what has been coined the parallel process. A glance into the authors supervision, personal analysis and treatment with a two times a week patient is brought center stage.