The author's project in this article is to wrestle with a paradox—how it happened that she changed while in a training analysis that moved into and, after a fashion, remained in lockdown. Things began to make sense when she happened upon complexity theory. Simultaneously an analysand, a becoming-analyst with her first patient, and a supervisee, she expands the field of therapeutic actions in (her) analysis and illuminates from the inside how therapeutic change is an emergent property of intertwining, interpenetrating, and interacting dynamic systems. She has come to see her growth within this expanded field as a fluid, contingent, and novel process of soft assembly.