Becoming a psychoanalyst has been a continuous process including clinical work, teaching, writing, and educational administration. I emphasize how I have changed in regular intervals regarding my way of thinking about clinical work, theory, and change processes within individuals and groups. In fact, psychoanalysis when it is effective embodies a process of not only examining who we are and have been, but always who we are becoming. Institutions that thrive find ways to remain curious about what is in the way of change and growth. Sources of resistance include the pulls for certainty within each of us as individuals and often exacerbated in the crucible of group contagion. First, I trace my beginnings, trying to enter an organized psychoanalysis that did not want people of my background (clinical psychologists). I highlight how much I have learned and am trying to learn about becoming a psychoanalyst in my office, teaching, editorial work, and in my writing.