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In this paper, I will attempt to formulate my personal experiences as a psychoanalyst in the wake of the atrocities committed in southern Israel on October 7th, 2023, which have led to a bloody war whose deadly consequences have been felt on both sides, in Gaza and in Israel. I wish to explore the meaning of the here-and-now encounter for me and my patients, as we are trapped within an ongoing catastrophe, wondering within ourselves, each in our own world, if this emotional turbulence will prove a permanent catastrophe or a “catastrophic change” which can facilitate psychic growth. I will attempt to understand what has been lost in my analytic practice and what supports the restoration of faith and analytic work, despite the hopelessness and the sense that no end to this war is in sight. I will examine my wounded identities – as a psychoanalyst and as an Israeli – and their potential rehabilitation. I will draw on Bion’s thinking about the psychoanalytic elements in clinical practice, which played a significant role in helping me establish my identity through my psychoanalytic training and which now help me understand the place-where-I-live.