Historically the countertransference, like the transference, was initially seen as a hindrance which came in the way of the analyst having a clear and objective view of his patient. Seen as a resistance on the part of the analyst, a result of his own neurotic conflicts, the countertransference was considered to be something which should be worked through in his own analysis. Over time, this has changed and the countertransference is now seen as an important part of the analytic relationship. In this paper I want to focus on my countertransference in the work with a particular patient, to look at the changes in it over the course of the therapy, and in my ability to be more consciously aware of it. I also want to look at the links between projective identification and countertransference, and in particular at the use of the former to control the object and to avoid separateness. The struggle to face reality is not just a problem for the patient, but to some extent also for the therapist, and I want to explore the resistance in both parties.