In the context of state violence, namely, the U.S. imperial support for Zionism that actively enables genocide in Palestine, self-immolation and encampments register as powerful methodologies of refusal and rootedness. This article reflects on reorienting to autoimmune disorder beyond a medical symptom to suppress or a mere metric of distress. In/flammation provides a way for thinking of the body as rebellious and disobedient, in solidarity with the oppressed and source materiality for holding historical memory. An autoethnographic epistemology contextualizes these insights as legacy. Radicalizing symptomology and politicizing traumatology show the preconditional (normative un/conscious) structures of neoliberal disavowal. These ignite opportunities to crip the doxa of biomedicalization and dream decolonial futures.