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Budapest, April 23, 1912
VII., Erzsébet-körút 54
Dear Professor,
I understand completely that, in the present state of affairs, you don't wish to meddle in the matter with Elma as long as you see no cause for “urgent advice.” I myself feel that I have to make the decision alone in this matter and should not share the responsibility with anyone. Certainly I am not afraid that our friendship will be jeopardized by anything connected with this family romance.
The pendulum swings in my inclination between Frau G. and Elma, between mother and sister, spirit and matter, are continuing—although not with such brisk frequency as before. I see the advantages and deficiencies of both women and will learn how to judge these deficiencies with somewhat more patience. It was becoming quite clear to me that I cannot renounce the tender and cerebral relation with Frau G., but that in additon to that I have erotic needs and a longing for domestic comfort and family that I must satisfy in order not to jeopardize through this lack of satisfaction Frau G.'s friendship, which is so valuable to me. I have the assurance that Frau G. will remain true to me even in the case of a union with Elma.