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Vienna
June 23, 1884
Dear and admired friend
The attack of conscientiousness during which I wanted to leave to you the decision whether I travel to see my girl or effortlessly earn a thousand florins has passed long ago. I marvel that I ever started to be so sensible; the explanation is that I wanted to act under the impression of bad news from outside. Now, you were magnanimous enough to refuse to make a decision, and now I know I will take the trip. I cannot travel earlier than I had intended, nor do I wish to return before the money has given out. I expect to be able to keep myself in Wandsbek for four weeks, and not return before August 15. If the position you are trying to procure for me is still open by then, it will tie me down till November. If I didn't take the trip, I could be free at the beginning of October. These six weeks are very important for the continuation of my work in the hospital; what's more, in November I won't have any daylight for my histological work. In short, the trip and the job with P. don't go together, or both together don't coincide with my projects in the hospital and in the town, with my “struggle to remain.”